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You're an amazing person, Faye.
In so many ways...
All of the ways!
I don't...
I wonder, would you believe me if I told you I never for a second thought I deserved you?
You're...always in control.
You always have a plan. A meticulous, masterfully orchestrated agenda, with room and contingencies for any eventuality.
You're this...
This elegant, brilliant, beautiful, caring person.
And I'm...
Well, I'm kind of slow.
When it comes down to things like this, I'm just...
Just a scared little kid who has no idea what to do.
I mess up.
And

And this time I really hurt you.
And...And I know, that with time, I could probably fix this.
You would probably forgive me for panicking and shoving you away.
But...

I don't think I deserve that chance.
I'm sorry, Faye.
I really, really am.